Why me?


I honestly don't know if anyone else asks themselves this question, but I do almost every other day as I read my bible, because I know I'm not a good person. I might look like it but deep inside, everyday I have to ask god to help me live in accordance with his word. 

Everyday I'm faced with the choice to do what is right or what is wrong and naturally the wrong one is more appealing as it's short term rewards are excellent and my dopamine system works in an overdrive to achieve them at any cost.
But the still small voice reminds me that the right choice is still mine to make. It reminds me of the greater things god has in store for me if I do what is right. It's not easy, but it's the right thing to do.

I ask God why he'd even tell me why he'd tell me what's right and what's wrong. I'm a sinner and a god so righteous and holy still tells me, " my child, this is the way to go". It breaks me that he loves me so much.

"Jesus died for me when I was still a sinner." A god so pure undeserving of the humiliation meted to him by human hands still died for a sinner like me. And as I ask again "Lord, why me?" I hear a voice saying, the greatest of all these is Love. 

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